I don't even feel like using this right now.
I'm hungry, and loaded up on nyquil and advil p.m.'s. I'm surprised I'm not knocked out by now.
But that's probably because I'm starviiiiing, and I'm too lazy to actually consume anything, so the meds must be working. Typing seems extra hard right now, too. I've made at least 85 typos while writing this, haha.
I'm really craving jasmine rice and a starbucks green tea frap right now.



mmmmzzzz

My spring break hasn't been all that impressive. It seems like I force myself to go out and do things every night, as to I feel I'm wasting time.
But I'm young, I have forever to do crazy shit.

I have a gnar cold right now. I'm actually allowed to see my best friend, after 2 years. We had our first "reunion" sleepover a few days ago. I love her!

Baby sister is due on the 27th, this will be the first birth I see, out of all 6 of my siblings, I'm kind of excited, but also kind of sketched out.

I think Frank and Alexis are taking me to Fort Myers this weekend, since plans to go there this weekend got screwed. I need to get over my fear of driving.

Facebook is so weird. Especially when my father messages me to tell me that my default is inappropriate, haha.
I'm addicted to 'kaboodle' lately. I mean, who wouldn't like lurking products on the internet, and sorting them into lists of things you'll never actually purchase?
Lurk miiiine, it's quite interesting.

http://www.kaboodle.com/savannahgrissinger/my-wish-list.html





I got up super early and made pancakes today. Then brownies. Then I cleaned all the glass tables in my room, lit some candles, and read a little bit of "House of Leaves". So glad to finally be in possession of it, I feel like I was on a fuckin' scavenger hunt for this hauntingly magnificent piece of literature. ;]




Sushi/Cupcake/Movie night with best friend coming up, as well as Disney with Austin.

So excited, yo.

Alright, that advil p.m. is kicking in hardcore now.

I've realized I talk to my mother a ridiculous amount. Every time something happens, no matter how insignificant, I give her a call. I don't feel lame for this though, she's the most fascinating person I've ever encountered. Living with her is going to be such a blast.

I've been writing in my actual journal almost everyday, which probably explains my lack of activity here.

I want a new one, this one preez:


I've finally decided on my tattoo, and even though I've 4 months until I actually get it, I'm already nervous. I'm getting it right under where my bra would be, horizontally on my side, and I've heard rib tattoos aren't all that comfortable. It's little, though, so I'm assuming it won't be as painful.






I still can't push myself away from Josh.
I hate every day without you, kid.

sleepin' in, black and mild, lunar lemonade, sunshine, vegan food and jerry springer. Today is gonna be a good day.

fort myers/cape coral this weekend, I couldn't be more excited.

~*







life is treating me so well.

I'm going to start using this more.

Happy eighteenth birthday, Natasha!




I have so much to say, but today is dedicated to the birthday girl.
I'll update later.

The depravity in my sleep acts more like a hangover, and at this rate, I could be pretty drunk by the time my eyes close.






Got my first car.
It's so "Granny".
It's so...Me.

I don't know if I can continue pretending that I'm okay for very much longer.

Every morning I wake up miserable asking myself "What's the point?" I hate living my life for my parents. 190 days until I belong to myself.

I spend all day, every day, thinking about my future. I don't want to wait anymore. I don't think I've ever been so miserable and I feel like I am wasting my life away here.
I need change.
I've been drinking more and more lately. I'm heading down a path of unhappiness, as lame and cheesy as that sounds, I feel like it's the truth.

I have no motivation to better myself at this point. Right now, I feel as if living with my mother would be the best "recovery". I know it sounds so pathetic, but I'm just generally really lonely.

I'm not a "sad" person whatsoever, but lately I've been so bummed out. I'm just always sulking over dumb shit and turning good situations into bad ones with my negativity. Not me at all.

I guess this is all just happening because I've been forcing myself to be less nice. I'm not used to it, and I just want to be a sweetheart, but I can't let everyone walk all over me anymore. This is going to take much time and effort.

Alright, New years resolutions.
1. Quit being such a pushover.
2. Quit Cussing. I've just recently noticed how dirty and stupid it makes me sound.
3. Quit ditching everyone. I make plans with people but then I get this sketchy feeling that things will be awkward due to my shyness and ditch just to avoid this. But I guess it really offends people when I do it, so I'm just going to have to suck it up.
4. Get more sleep. I'm lucky if I get 4 hours. But with all the running around I do, I am in dire need of it. I get sick so easily because I just wear myself out runnin' on 4 hours. I don't know how I'm going to go about "resolving" this, as to I CAN'T sleep. But I'll figure out something.
5. Become Lacto-Veg. I'm already vegetarian, 3 years now. but I would love to become vegan. I would have done this long ago, but I really can't just this minute due to health problems. So I've decided to take it step by step. I'll eliminate eggs for now, making me lacto-veg. Later on, I'll kiss it all goodbye.
6. Take Vitamins! This. I've failed, through all my years of being veg. and it's definitely catching up with me. I'm sure my overall health will improve if I actually go through with it. Bummer I have a fear of swallowing pills.

I had a fantastic New years, by the way. I didn't get any pictures, considering I was intoxicated, and my flash doesn't even work. So here are a few pictures I've stolen from sober people at da partieezz.~


The first party we went to at "The Trails" or whatever. Looked like a damn crackhouse, but there were 5798457 people there and I was welcomed by this flaming vehicle.

And then I fell into this hot tub thing filled with ice whilst wearing sandals. It was a little chilly.

Mind you, they had 2009 beers there. This is just a leeeetle.


Didn't stick around long enough to see this, but here's the aftermath, ha.


Next we went to some college party in UCF with live music and things. Everyone there was at least 3 or 4 years older than me, I dug it. Everyone was very friendly :]



HA.

From what I recall, the bands were fantastic. Very animal collective-esque.

funfunfun.

someone give me a spine for Christmas.


205 days.

I'm sick of wasting so much time on total douche bags.

I need out of Florida.

Being in one place for too long is messing with me, I'm so used to moving every year.


224 days until I can leave for good.

I really have no idea what I'm going to do, I can't wait to see the outcome of this.








Mono continues to take over my life. :/
ha.

one thing that never changes about me:
I always want what I can't have.

I can't wait for it to get cold.
I want to wear my boots and go on walks and see my breath and wear cute hoodies and bake and consume more soy chai lattes than any human should.

As of right now, I don't things could get any better.

My mother is moving back to Florida next week, last time I talked to her, she was in New Mexico.
I haven't seen her in a year, I just keep dreamin' about the day I see her and my brothers and little sister again. Big "Welcome Home" fete at Becky's maison when she arrives.

I have FCAT retakes on Tuesday...Math :l But I just know I'm going to pass, so all is well.


I still can't sleep. I wish I could sleep in until noon like everyone else, but once I get four hours with that memory foam pillow, I'm ready to take on the world. or maybe just take a really long hot shower and make breakfast for everyone...

Alright, so boys. I tried the whole dating thing for the past month or so, but I just don't find anyone impressive. I'm fine just kickin' it with my ladies for once. Not really lookin'.

My little baby kitten has grown so much.


october 23- portugal. the man.
october 31st-November 2nd- Lakeland/Garrick's birthday/Halloween.
November 4th-Best friend's birthday!
November 5th-Momma's.
November 15th-Homecoming.

I went back to Daytona on Tuesday. So many memories. I missed it.



idiot.

Hair is brown now, and I brought the nose ring back ;]

-I'm left handed.
-I'm the most sarcastic person you'll ever encounter.
-I'll tell you if I think you're annoying.
-I like to point.
-I say "Excuse me sir" "Sketchy" "Word" and "lol" way too much.
-I'm convinced that my step-dad is the coolest man to walk the Earth.
-I'm not shy, unless you're cooler than me.
-I suck at staring contests.
-I can't say the word "Cinnamon" correctly.
-I sing the coconut song way too much.
-I can make dirty jokes out of anything.
-Stare at me, I like it.
-Topless Crew fo lyf3.
-I never know where my Blackberry is.
-If I do, I won't answer it anyways.
-I drink soymilk from the carton.
-I have a funny stride.
-I went through kindergarten twice.
-My undies are always showing, stylish.
-I tend to document everything.
-Don't make plans with me, they never work out.
-you can usually find me being carried around.
-I like everyone.
-I'll make fun of you...a lot.<3
-I have a hard time making eye contact.
-I have a mild case of ocd.
-I don't like to step on the cracks.
-Just because I'm nice to you doesn't mean I'm in love.
-I make wishes on everything.
-I'm really picky when it comes to guys.
-IRISH ACCENTS<3
-I was born with Blue eyes, now they're Green...I think.
-I drink more coffee than you.
-I actually kinda like being shorter than everyone.
-I'm Irish, Indian, and Italian.
-I laugh at everything. Literally.
-Try to change my mind on who I think is the cutest, it doesn't work.
-I'm obnoxiously nice, to everyone.
-I have an obsession with African Americans, and Mustaches.
-I'm wearing my Daddy's valentine's day boxers.
-I don't trust anyone.
-I've been a vegetarian for over 2 years.
-I have a cute little blackberry, but I could care less about it.
-I make the best banana pancakes.
-I can't sleep.
-I have a heart disease :(
-I go out of my way to make people happy, I've been like this since I was little.
-My family calls me a "pleaser" because of that.
-I can dance like a ghetto mammii. It's scary.
-I'm spoiled :/
-I've lived in orlando my entire life.
-you'll never see me crying unless I'm watching a chickflick.
-I'm known to not favor clothing.
-Gimme some bubblegum, I'll beat ya in a bubble contest!
-I'm ticklish everywhere. Seriously.
-I don't usually give second chances.
-I graduated modeling school a year ago, but I haven't cared since then, ha.
-I've given up on guys.
-I'm always dancing.
-I can't swallow pills.
-My hair is naturally stick-straight.
-Natasha Austin and Ashley Shue know me better than anyone in the world.
-I have 5 younger siblings.
-My mom lives in Co. and my real dad is dead :(
-I have a crush on Lil B from 'the pack'.
-I'm a night lurker.
-I'm afraid of being annoying.
-I don't drink soda.
-I'm really girly.
-I'm really blunt.

blah blah blah.